So out of the clear blue sky, the love of my life decides that he wants to resurface and make socialization? or a random two week recommitment? I really do not know what it is that he wants or is trying to do. We go from random weekly conversations to him asking me out the clear blue sky if I was going to come and spend some time with him during my holiday break at home. I was very confused and unclear what has brought this about, though I am eager to see what is to come I still have my heart on reserve. I mean he had it and dropped it, walked away from, barely picked it back up to a full fledged blowing it kisses and drawing smiley faces on it. I just do not trust him or any man at this point in my life. As much as I love, love I do not know or hold faith in them. I really want and need them to prove to me that they want my time and attention. I am over these half ass men and their deceitful ways that they call courtship. Until I figure out if I trust and believe I will just listen to Melanie Fiona strum my pain with her fingers, and sing all the words of my heart publicly.
Until then I will let my heart and mind ruin my happiness and fight it out...
"Apart of me wants to leave, but the other half still believes...I got to be out of my mind to think its going to work this time...and it kills me to know how much I really love you."
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