So here it is, last night, you and I for the first time. Simplicity exsisted, conversation was great. You made me giggle and out right laugh. I felt completely welcomed by you and all things placed around me in this room. In my mind I was thinking (wow am I really here...chill-axin on a foreign couch, as if I had been here before and that I immediately fell into my comfort zone?)
Hmmm...Nice
Then I thought how much is this illusion gonna cost me? Yes I said cost, cause when you haven't felt the soothing soundwaves travelling the airway specifically for you in the while, well you somewhat become a nonbeliever of its existance. Well not really, but you ride on to the thought that it is apparently far in the distance.
But at this point last night that distance was clear and present
with this comfortable ass couch I have discovered...honestly this shit was GREAT!!! Let me tell you about this couch: It was soft to touch, no pillows in the seat area so the surface was not lumpy or constently fluctuating, but firm and steady. Its size was slender and sexy...something I would call living room eyecandy without all the fancy coverings of leather. From plainly looking at it and one picked up on the fact that it has seen plenty days and ways with the human body..but it still held its comfort and warmth to and for me. So as anyone who desired to see it for themselves, I indulged and basked in it.
I figured if from my naked eye I envisioned all the other components of its structure and expreesion upfront whatever else there is to come... I could handle, plus it had already spoke up to me and told me that I wouldn't regret if I took a seat...and those were the most honest words I had heard from anyone, I mean thing all day.
Friday, July 13, 2007
Sunday, July 1, 2007
Later that day into the Morning...
Well after being filled with rage, anger, and disgust from my self. I showered, dressed, and walked out the door. I walked out into the world that was filled with greater problems that I could ever imagine having on my own. I walked out into the world were children and teenagers were on the streets enjoying what they saw as a peace-filled evening. I walked out of my house trying to regain my strength.
About 3 years ago, a dear friend of mine told me that I was very resilient. He had never witnessed someone who was a strong as I. I thought to myself that he was just being kind and attempting to encourage me to keep my head above water. For there were many times when I felt that I were drowning in a sea of sorrow and unfortunately had grabbed a hold of some of my friends that were not interested in going under with me, which eventually pushed them away. But as time moved on and I was able to clear my thoughts I began to believe in what my friend had shared with me. I reflected on days when I did not know him and times were "ruff". I had no one to count on but myself. I had no one to hear my words in there entirety. I was in a world were I was fighting to define myself and my surroundings were all nouns against me. But this is when I believed in me. Believed in all the things that I had learned throughout growth and development, adolescences, and young adult hood. I believed and agreed with what he said and what God said. I put my trust in the Lord. I put my all into Hebrews 11:1.
So this morning I awoke on my own, to God's sunshine and street noise. I awoke with a different spirit and new disposition on my life. I awoke knowing that all things are possible and inevitable things are set to be apart of my destiny. I got up, cleaned up, looked threw the things that belong to me and made up my mind that TODAY will not reflect YESTERDAY!!! For it is a thing of the past, dwelling on it will only make me mad. And because I picked up that attitude, the Lord lead me to his house and showed me His word. Today, unlike other times I was in he house of God I felt that the sermon was made for me. Made for my strength, to show me that the person I was, is not who God made me to be. For me to remain in encouraged and that Friends can sometimes be more than any other thing we find fond to our heart.
Lesson for the day: God sees' all of our faults, and still fulfills our needs.
About 3 years ago, a dear friend of mine told me that I was very resilient. He had never witnessed someone who was a strong as I. I thought to myself that he was just being kind and attempting to encourage me to keep my head above water. For there were many times when I felt that I were drowning in a sea of sorrow and unfortunately had grabbed a hold of some of my friends that were not interested in going under with me, which eventually pushed them away. But as time moved on and I was able to clear my thoughts I began to believe in what my friend had shared with me. I reflected on days when I did not know him and times were "ruff". I had no one to count on but myself. I had no one to hear my words in there entirety. I was in a world were I was fighting to define myself and my surroundings were all nouns against me. But this is when I believed in me. Believed in all the things that I had learned throughout growth and development, adolescences, and young adult hood. I believed and agreed with what he said and what God said. I put my trust in the Lord. I put my all into Hebrews 11:1.
So this morning I awoke on my own, to God's sunshine and street noise. I awoke with a different spirit and new disposition on my life. I awoke knowing that all things are possible and inevitable things are set to be apart of my destiny. I got up, cleaned up, looked threw the things that belong to me and made up my mind that TODAY will not reflect YESTERDAY!!! For it is a thing of the past, dwelling on it will only make me mad. And because I picked up that attitude, the Lord lead me to his house and showed me His word. Today, unlike other times I was in he house of God I felt that the sermon was made for me. Made for my strength, to show me that the person I was, is not who God made me to be. For me to remain in encouraged and that Friends can sometimes be more than any other thing we find fond to our heart.
Lesson for the day: God sees' all of our faults, and still fulfills our needs.
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