On to the Next One...

So I had a great day today, I planned my next 8 months which are an exit strategy out of NY in 2010. Yes I am ready to go, ready to leave my love, my favorite city to date. I have come to grips with the fact that my home is not in the City of Dreams any longer. All that I love, all that truly makes me happy is not here and will not be here forever. The best friend and brother I could have ever asked God for is leaving for Brazil. I am so excited and sad at the same time. He is the most reckless, tackless, loving, driven, and intellectual man I know. His passion about his work and his family is phenomenal yet a direct reflection of his venturesome upbringing. My cousin, the right hand man I have had since 2nd grade is headed back to Zamunnda to be with her prince. And ultimately the 5 year plan I designed when I arrived here, has come to its complete fruition and now it is time for God to redirect me to my next place.

All The In Between, are Just Chapters to the Story: The Reconnection...

So it is 2010, and at the tale end of 2009, He who I have deemed the love of my life, has returned back to me. I suppose? Maybe? Possibly? I honestly do not know. It really just happened all of sudden, and long before it actually took place it was very unrealistic. However, I was there laying in the warmth of his arms, underneath the cool of breathe, so I know that it was true. He and I, rekindled, for a moment in time. We lay side by side over the course of a few days, we slept, ate and played. We even went so far to watched one another in slumber. Jokingly, but filled with keepsake intentions, we snapped photos of each other, at our best and worst moments. Knowing him, I am half naked or unclothed sneak shots of me trying to get dressed...I digress.

There are many things that I want to cover in this brief blog that we have shared in the past few weeks, but I am going to keep it simple as possible...first I wanted to address the whys, how's, and why not's. Before (as in 2008) you were pretty open with me, some times apprehensive but still open enough that I trusted in you whole-heartly. I have always been a firm believer in having face-to-face conversations with people about matters that are dear to the heart, but the three opportunities I was given to do so with you, I did not do it.

I also believe in timing and comfort for a conversation. Yes I am a type A personality, but I also like to respect moments in life and live in the moments of pure bliss. So with that said, although the thoughts ran across my brain while I lay under you or stare you in the face as we sip alcohol together, I knew to leave those times as they were. Happy.

Then there is of course the actual conversation, via text message. I was actually in complete disbelief that you had it, and with little effort of me pulling it out of you. But more importantly, it was what you said. I will admit that I am a sucker for love, especially one that I never gave up on, that I always wondered if it would come back to me. (Thank you God, if this is that chance). You actually shared with me your thought process, because you are cocky and confident you have a way about you that never gives up or in on anyone or anything that you want. We are very compatible people, and my level of educational success does not offend you, nor does it make you feel like you cannot be what I want or need. Confidence, is something I truly admire within you. With that you spoke these words to me, and I was set into a trance and left a reaffirmed believer that words speak power "When I first seen you, I was like "I want her" and it was genuine...like I wanted to get to know you and vice versa...that's why I try not to take people for granted because I asked for them to be in my life"

If that doesn't make your heart melt, and scream I am being sincere, I do not know what it is or means to be sincere by any since of the word.

think that is one of the most intimate things that one can do, it shows a true interest affection of




Let me know, do I still got time to grow...things ain't always set in stone. That be known, let me know... - Kanye West "Streetlights"