I'm not sure if I want to check in or if I won't to just check it out. I often just wonder what any of this "love" shit is all about. What's the point of telling someone you care and then treating them as if they weren't ever shit or simply there. I mean seriously I'm kinda just really mad at myself that I even fell for you and what I now think is a bunch bullshit.
See I thought I had it bad when the jerks before you let me down, but I see all of you were playing the same and all decided to throw daggers at my heart. Three of you claimed to care for me and endlessly respect our friendship but as I reflect back on the time we shared it just really makes me want to fucking cry. Cry because I am confused, cry because I feel like I am a victim, cry honestly because I don't know what else to do. For a short while you were there to mend my broken wings and easy my aching heart but today you have actually brought on a new pain. Sigh* honeslty, I don't know or have a clue to were to start.
I mean I cared about you all deeply because you brought happiness...to my heart.
My sunshine, he was a battle....Cold feet he was just rude...
But Stinky, my stinky I get teary eyed at every thought of you. I let my guard down because I thought I had found a new best friend, we exchanged pieces of happiness from palm to hand. I fought to keep us alive and on good terms, BUT you excommunicated me, and left me with a world of shame. Shamed that I loved you openly, disgruntled to hear your name, 'shamed that I even adored you or attempted to call you my _______.
See I thought I had it bad when the jerks before you let me down, but I see all of you were playing the same and all decided to throw daggers at my heart. Three of you claimed to care for me and endlessly respect our friendship but as I reflect back on the time we shared it just really makes me want to fucking cry. Cry because I am confused, cry because I feel like I am a victim, cry honestly because I don't know what else to do. For a short while you were there to mend my broken wings and easy my aching heart but today you have actually brought on a new pain. Sigh* honeslty, I don't know or have a clue to were to start.
I mean I cared about you all deeply because you brought happiness...to my heart.
My sunshine, he was a battle....Cold feet he was just rude...
But Stinky, my stinky I get teary eyed at every thought of you. I let my guard down because I thought I had found a new best friend, we exchanged pieces of happiness from palm to hand. I fought to keep us alive and on good terms, BUT you excommunicated me, and left me with a world of shame. Shamed that I loved you openly, disgruntled to hear your name, 'shamed that I even adored you or attempted to call you my _______.
I mean seriously I've been broken down before and felt my face hit the ground but this, this, this disengagement has punctured me to the core and I am affraid that I will now live with fear inside. A fear that I don't want to ever love anymore or even lovingly greet Mr. Passer-by.
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