Sweet Escapes: The Coldest Winter Ever.

So there has been back and forth with he who shall remain nameless.
He wants this, that, this, and then some. And I hear him but I'm not listening.
Part of me wants to and part of me thinks that he is just a JOKE!
I mean, its very clear that he isn't ready.
But even if he was ready, I'm not.
Or am I not because I want him not, anymore?

See, that is the hmmm and the eh, of the matter.

Hmmmm I wondered for sometime, what shoulda, coulda, woulda, or life have been like to have shared moments in life with him.
Hmmmm where the thoughts that provoked my mind when I fantasized about what kind of times we could have had, he knowing me and my friends.
The thoughts of falling into his arms and understanding his world. (ummmmmmmmmmm, mhmm)
But that all turned into an eh when his emotions became scarce and his words seemed like ice sickles that were frozen lies, mischief, and deceit.
Its like time froze this past winter and everything it captured from him has begun to melt in the spring sun.

But, I was struck by a new ray of light.
One of sincerity, devotion, unphased but passionate honesty.
This new ray raised the bar of standards for all from sunrise to sunset.
Its light is a gentle kiss in the early dawn,
a "love you goodbye" before adventures begun.

This new ray...all began in a Daydream.